Waiting

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... Waiting ....

White crippled wings beating the sky,

And I've only got my brittle bones to break the fall.

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Every time it hurts more and more...

No matter what, no matter when.

Sooner or later, I know...

I know I'm going to break into tears.

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Hey! I'm right in front of you. Look at me.

Ñañaña.

I can't be so invisible ... Right?

Well. Sorry for that, okaaay?

Hmpf.

I think that I'll choose my smile before to wear spike heels ...

Defeat after defeat.

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Is it worth keep trying? I don't know.

And I wonder if I'll ever stop feeling like this...

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This isn't working at all. Hell, and I know it...

I'm sorry Farron but... just keep trying. Again.

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I give up ...

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I hate this.

Every day I wake up with the same feeling that I have when I'm going to sleep. And I hate this feeling. Even if I can't describe it, even if I can't put a name to that feeling, I know I hate it. I hate it with all my strenght. And it hurts. It hurts like hell that's the way it feels.

I'm tired of all this. I'm tired of being who I am. I'm tired of fighting a battle that I've lost. I'm tired of being lost and helpless. I'm tired of that every step that I take is another mistake. I'm tired of being weak, to feel weak. I'm tired of dreaming and then wake up. I'm tired of so many things ...And I just want to run, run away; without looking back. But I don't know where. I can't see a future, and the present it's falling apart.

When this feeling sank into me, it tore me apart. And still does.

When all is lost, only hope remains, right? Then... what can you do when you've lost all hope? What the hell is supposed I have to do? Tell me that.

It's hard to deal with the pain; but I'm doing it. It's hard to force that smile every day when I'm alone. Still Harder. I try not to think about anything. Just keep walking, one step, another step. I don't want to take a few tears and just let them out. So I stand.

And I feel that it's killing me.

I can't hold that. Please, I just... I give up. I just want to make this go away.

I'm sorry... I'm so sorry...

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One Day ~ The Rootless

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Ame-agari no sora wo aogu tabi
Naki mushi datta koro no boku wo omou
Dareka no senaka wo gamusharani oikaketa
"Tsuyokunaritai" tte
Ima wa kaze ni kieta "arigatou"
Boku wa tsuyokunarete iru no kana?
Kotae wa mada desou ni nai kara sa
Yappari mada aruite iku yo

Saa yukou
Tachidomaru koto naku
Nagareru toki ni makenai you ni
Nando mo tachi mukai tsuzukeyou
Taisetsu na mono ushinaitaku nai kara

Yuugure ni mau tori no you ni
Mienai asu wo sagashiteru
Tsumazuki nagara kowakutemo
Ashimoto ni me wa otosanaiyo

Akirameru kotoba wa
Korogatteru kedo
Akiramenai gooru wa hitotsu dake
Yorokobi kanashimi nori koeta wa
Sukoshi zutsu aruiteikuru

Hateshinai sora ni
Te wo kazasou
Tatta hitotsu no mirai wo shinjinagara
Modoranai toki wa utsurou kedo
Taisetsu na mono ushinaitaku nai kara

Boku no naka ni nagareru koe wa
Zutto zutto boku wo sasaeteru
Itazura na ame ga jama suru kedo
Nigedasanai kara
Oh ~

Saa yukou
Tachidomaru koto naku
Nagareru toki ni makenai you ni
Nando mo tachi mukai tsuzukeyou
Taisetsu na mono ushinaitaku nai kara
Shinjita sono saki e to ...

Boku no naka ni nagareru koe wa ...

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